Despondency

It seems that troubling thing I hate more than anything is back- depression.  My life has been really good lately- I’m not upset with anything or anyone, I’m just…..whatever.  It’s that stupid depression that has nothing to do with circumstances or hormones or anything else that comes to mind as the obvious causes.  Anyway. I don’t want to bore y’all.  But I’m having a hard time writing the climax of my current novel when all I feel is despondency.  It’s like I don’t feel like I have any reason to do anything but blast the soundtracks to Les Mis and Phantom and sit at my window, talking to no one. :/  Oh well.  All that to say, I haven’t been writing as much as I would like, and so to meet my 100-pages-a-month quota for Esmeralda, I have 35 pages to pick up in the next two days.  Lord willing I’ll make it, but I could use some prayers.  So yeah, life’s handing me lemons, and for the life of me I cannot recall the recipe for lemonade.

  • Alina Maira

    Aw Lydia!
    Praying for you precious girl!

  • Aw thanks m’dear. I really appreciate it. <3

  • Lydia, I don’t know if I’m crossing a line by commenting on something non-writing-related, but I felt almost compelled to say something. I want you to know that I’m praying for you. I know we don’t really know each other, but I know that God has GIGANTIC plans in mind for you, and He is holding onto you. That’s all I’m going to say, and if this at all weirded you out, please don’t hesitate to tell me and I promise I won’t cross this line again; I’ll simply remain your semi-anonymous writing buddy. 🙂

  • Oh my gosh, Sam (can I call you that or is it totally weird?) you just made my day. Thank you so much, and, no you’re not crossing any line. I never want to creep you out by being too personal / talking about stuff other than writing since I tend to “latch” onto people easily and don’t want them to be creeped out, because I swear I’m not a stalker. If you don’t mind, I really consider you a friend! So thank you for encouraging me and giving me a boost. The prayers are wonderful. I am doing much better and have finished my 300 pages. 🙂

  • Of course you can call me Sam! Haha ’tis my name, after all. Nor do I “mind” at all that you consider me a friend—in fact, I’m quite honored to be called your friend. 🙂 And just so you know, the feeling is mutual!

    I’m so happy to hear that you’re doing better, and about your 300 pages! That’s such an accomplishment! So… if I’m not mistaken… this means LOTS MORE CHAPTERS FOR ME TO READ! 😀