January is over, and with it my writing fast.
So here’s some closure for this whole situation, to let you know how it ended:
I did, despite all odds, survive. I had a million, “Oh my gosh, what a brilliant idea I’ve had- I should go write that book this. very. second!” moments. But I jotted down the ideas and tried to focus elsewhere. I think this was good for me. For the first couple of days I felt like a total loser as I realized that I really didn’t have much of a life without my writing, in a way. But my focus really changed, and there were several good changes I made:
1. I have a disciplined routine! Waking up by a certain time, spending time with the Lord, working out immediately, showering, juicing carrots, making a smoothie and then cleaning the house and getting to whatever the day held. It feels good. This includes my renewed focus on getting healthier.
2. I realized I need direction for my life that sitting around writing all day has not given me, and I’m thinking that may begin with a long-term missions trip for a semester or so at some point, possibly to Haiti. I’m still looking around. I also need a job, now that I’ve moved, and I need to stop procrastinating.
3. Most importantly I realized my need for a Savior more than ever. Without my obsession to clog up my every thought, I realized at times just what a wretch I am, and what I need to focus on. I started prioritizing my time in the morning spent reading the Word, and hopefully have become more focused in general. And I plan on increasing that from here on.
So thanks for all of your prayers and the encouragement I found pouring into my inbox/figment page/blog from you, my lovely friends.
And now I need to wrap this up, because Isla and her plight are calling to me. 😉
(Oh, on a random/life-enriching note: you should check out “Jekyll and Hyde” the musical; the song “Confrontation” is my absolute favorite right now. It’s amazing. So…go listen to it.)