It’s what you’ve all been waiting for!  Only…I can’t bear to post it.

Most of you know that I finished Esmeralda (on paper; it’s allmosssttt all typed up)! And it only took me 100 days which was pretty cool.  But guess what!?!?!

I hate my ending.  It’s not bad in and of itself, but let’s just say that it builds up to something far grander and then….kaput.  The excitement just dies.  It’s lame.  I hate it.  When I wrote the ending to Betrayal, which I am now editing because it has so very many flaws, I got butterflies at the end.  (Okay, maybe I’m not supposed to admit that, because many of you have read it too…  And maybe you hated the ending.)

The only part I like is that in re-reading it, I sense an unconsciously written nod to Charlotte Brontë in there.  Otherwise…oh, I can’t even think of it without cringing.

So I have a proposition: how about I type it up and before I post it I send it to anyone who’s interested?  Then y’all can tell me WHAT IN THE WORLD TO DO ABOUT MY ENDING!  I mean it- I need help.  Just facebook, tweet, figment-wall-post or email me with your email address and as soon as I get it typed up I’ll send it to you. 🙂

And I mean it- please take me up on this.  I need the advice.  And this means if you don’t want to read my whole dumb ending but you still have ideas for how it could go, I want that input as well! Please.  🙂

  • Autumn

    You know I’m up to reading it. =) Though I feel so utterly bittersweet about it! I’ve been savoring your story for several months now, I can’t bear to see it end. =[

  • That’s how I always feel when I read books…I wish they never ended. :/ I’m glad to know I’ve entertained you thus. 🙂 Well, I have a good six or seven chapters to go before I get to my awful ending. 😛 I’ll post those and then send you what I’ve got, k? And thanks as always my dear.

  • Hannah Jones

    Woo I would love to help. Just email it to me at be********** you know the rest. Can’t wait to savor the ending.

  • Oh no! Firstly, I’m sure it’s not half as bad as you think it is, but I know how it feels to despise your own handiwork. It’s like your only child has turned on you and has decided to gleefully flaunt it in your face. >.<

    I'm a little torn on offering my help, because I really do want to read the rough draft as it is, and I half-feel like I'd be intruding on something that's very much yours. But at the same time… I can hardly resist such a tempting offer!! I mean, Lydia, seriously, a sneak peek? You have no idea how thrilling this is. 😛

    So… as a fellow writer and friend, I would be honored if you would grace me with your last chapters. 😉 Drafts are for mutilating, right? I'll tweet ya my email.

    In the meantime, my humble suggestion it for you to go ahead and post the rest of the draft on Figment. In its entirety. The way it is. *assumes lecture voice, shakes finger* Figment is NOT a place for perfection (if that were the case, I would be SO gone)! Haha anyways, I can't wait to read your ending, m'dear.

  • Well thanks. We’ll see if it’s any good. Yes, the only child metaphor hits home. 🙂
    Oh I’m so glad you would like to read it, though! I really value your input into it so much- it was your comment suggesting that maybe Leopold be brought to her (which wasn’t what I’d written) that helped get me thinking. 🙂 You? Gone from figment for lack of perfection? Never!! Not so, my dear. Maybe I’ll put it on Figment….mayybbeeee. I don’t know. But I want severe criticism no matter what. I mean it.

  • moriah h

    As you know, I’ve been following your story 🙂
    I’d love to read the ending!!

  • Thanks so much, Moriah! I’ll send it along as soon as I get it all typed up! 🙂 I really, really appreciate your continued reading!!

  • Alina Maira

    I have so much catching up to do in your story! I have hardly been on my computer and life has been crazy, but I do intend on reading it as soon as possible. Its so sad to hear its coming to an end now…Well anyways I will get reading and please send it to me and I will give you my brutally honest opinion! 😀

  • Okay good- I want brutal honesty!!! 🙂 Like, really. And don’t worry- life happens to all of us I’m afraid. 😛 My story should never be your priority or make you feel guilty. 🙂

  • Alina Maira

    Awesome! I can’t wait to read it! And NO you misunderstood…”Priority” and obligation are two entirely different things! Priority it is! But only because I love it and miss reading it and really always want to read more of it! Its on my top list…its a PRIORITY in a GOOD way! 😀 Its never an obligation! 😀